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[27 Nov 2005|04:48am] big gulps huh welp see ya later 3 lit up| 17 cigarettes

[06 Oct 2005|06:55pm] so things just get worse. i cant sleep anymore like at all. not that i never slept before but now i just stay up and realize that i fucked up life and the only person to blame is me. i pushed away the only girl i would ever want to be with and now i have no one. fuck that sucks. life is grand! 17 cigarettes

[26 Sep 2005|07:43pm] awesome saw the doc today and he told me i have whiplash$ now i have to take 3 diffrent drugs 4 times a day omg sweet. i want lindsay back stat damnit! 17 cigarettes

[24 Sep 2005|09:11pm] woot just got into a car crash. with a drunk mexican then he took off fuck that shit. and like 30 mexicans were around omg awesome and they threw beer all over my truck. but i smashed the other truck into a ditch it was tight. but my only mexican friend showed up and was like im here to protect you i was like thank fucking god. sad thing is i have no gf to call and tell her im ok even tho i wishedi had died. 1 lit up| 17 cigarettes

[24 Sep 2005|02:21am] there is a evergrowing hole in my chest. i doubt it will ever heal. nor do i want it to. so that i can endure the pain i have caused forever. or maybe just 17 cigarettes

[23 Sep 2005|09:04pm] oh boy so iv just been getting worse now i have this cough and the stomach pain is so bad. oh lord help me love is a fucked up thing. ill never get her back and i wont get to say that im sorry for evertying and that i want her to have the best life possible. and hope that all her dreams come true. even if i wont be there to see her smile. and when she acts all stupid and cute that makes me cry. oh god ill cry now. good luck in life lindsay may you get everything you deserve. 17 cigarettes

[20 Sep 2005|03:37am] is it just me or is the raining and thundering and lighting like fucking awesome. its like gloomy yet gorgeous. omg. the lighting so wonderful even tho you only see it for a second and the thunder crying out for attention hot damn i love it. makes the world seem so grey and gloomy. so great. 17 cigarettes

[19 Sep 2005|08:38pm] so tomm i got to see about this job at a vet hospital to work the kennal cuz they need one bad and i know the manager and a friend works there. and that should be good i need to get out and do other shit then play everquest. and also im getting everything set up for the spring semester. which is great cuz i want to go finish school and get a degree with something dealing with kids. cuz i love them. so we'll see ghow it goes. only thing will be missing is lindsay sad panda. 17 cigarettes

[17 Sep 2005|10:54pm] what up suckas. i have no life. omg. and no friends hot. but maybe once i go back to school and stuff. this comming spring ill make some. since i was gonna go to school this fall but someone messed up the plans and changed them last second and confusing shit. and so i cant get a job well i cant but ill only be at it for like 2 months then im moving. hotsauce. so yeh. getting everting settled away for this spring. so im not behind. and getting stuff at the last min which is never good. since im a changed kid gotta go with teh changing times. i guess lawls. umm heart still broken. worese everyday. thx for asking. time to go shoot myself in teh face BAI 1 lit up| 17 cigarettes

[17 Sep 2005|01:57am] been having stomach pains for a few days now i think i should go to the Dr. talked to lindsay the other day but she just gave up kinda weak if you ask me but i left some shit at her house. that she left. cuz i dont want it. and did some other stuff i hope she gets later haha. welp gonna go throw up i think stomach is a bastard 1 lit up| 17 cigarettes

[14 Sep 2005|09:37pm] is love nothing more then a memory something we hold so close that it becomes part of us. how does one deal with the never ending pain of lost memories. how do you deal with knowing someone else will someday enjoy your memories can you really ever erase them. to me you will always hold a place in this heart any little memory can spark a reminder of what once was great and tragically ripped apart where did you drift away. not giving it your all must have mislead you and taken you in like a lost sheep to teh wolf. 17 cigarettes

[13 Sep 2005|09:00pm] so me and sean have been looking for more members we have ppl who are tying out. so we'll be getting shit going asap. which is really tight. probably by next week we might have the whole band figured out which will be awesome. yeh. job searching sucks. but if this band goes off. i have to move to irvine which is cool but ya know ummm nothing else. but ya matt get online and im me sometime you idiot so we can hang out. 17 cigarettes

[13 Sep 2005|01:59am] good ol livejourna a place to pour out your heart and no one to care. so lynz left me she has better goals in life then me, so yuo go get them maybe one day we'll work out i hope and pray i keep throwing up omg emotions are so fun, my cousins have moved in with us thats pretty cool walt is so cool. the rest r so so. umm. gotta find a job now so i have all teh time in the world. i just started a new band with sean and his friends called lighting old people on fire should be good stuff. um yeh. im so fucking heart broken. we were working it out then she calls and says goodbye and nothing more. that is teh worst i dont even want to think about dating or find a new gf. im gonna wait for her forever. cuz i can. and i will watch me. even if i die alone. i dont care. lindsay dreyer is all i want. even when shit got bad. i wanted to work it out. she isnt the work it out type i guess. but good luck to her and her life. i will wait for you untill teh world blows up. 1 lit up| 17 cigarettes

[04 Aug 2005|12:06pm] this is fucking bullshit. FIN 17 cigarettes

[18 Dec 2004|12:18am] hot damn its been a while no shit eh. umm lets start it off with hey i finished a semester of college oh shit. i know crazy huh. im amazed. ummm. xmas is comming oh joy. i hate it. i dont get anything anymore so its a waste of my time. and i just wanna get into a family fight when we go to san diego that would be so fuckin cool seriously. its funny. lindsey never met my whole family after 3 years or whatever but in 1 week lindsay met the whole family thats so funny and its only been like a year and a half ya know. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm <3 goes out to asheeleye,yleyeklyus she is my east coast love. and kalgon is my easy coast love as well but in boy format ya know. ha. ummm kalgon didnt fly out here cuz hes a pussy and is scared of planes. so WoW is out its a prety fun game but meh. there is better. im gonna start remodeling the outsider of the house. since im gonna be a landsacpe guy when i grow up and finish college. ill design your house bitches. i fixed my truck i <3 it and ya ummmmm yep fuck off. 2 lit up| 17 cigarettes

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